Category Archives: _Cristian

change of identities

Today we started a new swap of identities. Giselda become Cristian, Cristian moved in Tanja’s body and Tanja discovered Giselda. A hard and difficult process of finding our fragilities….

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“In the last 24h I achieved to:
– roll several bad cigarettes
– finally buy the soap I wanted to buy at the pharmacy
– try my emotional solo in a new way at Cristians flat
– forget how to speak in my own language, but speak quite well norwegian
– get a compliment on my romanian pronunciation from a taxi driver
– take the metro in Bucharest
– remember that I can dance as a gypsy bride
– keep over 50% of my dancing even in the new body
– remember to put on my perfume
– get rid of the rash on my chest
It was a good day.
Giselda

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this hours was very uncomfortable and painful to be. My boots was harding me a lot, and my body was in conflict with my mind and the opposite, did no know exactly where to put the thinks.
realising that i don’t have so much information about me or I forgot them, I started to watch norwegian movies for the language and tried to look again for my movement quality.
I felt like I started to loose my identity and I can´t connect with myself so good like the other days.
I was trying to flirt again with cristian as usual but i decided not to remain at his place after, where we had a very good diner all together. I was no more then 20% of myself because of the cristian influences.

trying to redo my solo was a hard job for me today but in the and i had the feeling that i was there.
I made a lot of pictures and I play with the lights at cristian´s flat. I have one more task to do.
the taxi driver said that the people in rusia have a better life then in romania
i was really faling in love with cristian today. i am glad that I had the change to go with the metro to cristian´s place, where it is so nice, cosy and we spend time discussing about contemporary dance, playing with the lights and watching giselda´s solo.
It was a good day,
Tanja

Cristian

I just thought a few days a go, how this developing process and personal developing process, starting with Fragile project experience, has open for me new perspectives and new understandings of creativity notion and imagination. And also the relations, the approach and the empathy with the people I worked with, during all this period. No I am at the point when I am feeling good vibe, concerning my body and my state of mind. I feel the need to be understood, to feel confident and to feel that the people around me can trust me. I am so curious to go further with our research, being prepared to open my mind and my feelings. I thing it is also very important to be able to offer a great human and emotional experience to the people that we will going to meet during the process. I cant wait to start with my eyes open and feeling happy to be with you, because from there we can develop things together.

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i was 30 % smell

Giselda said that it was great to be Cristian.
There are many ways to show that I am feeling good and trapped in the same time.
It is not enough to be present. The gaze the awareness and the connections.
Fragility group.
Witch part of me do you want to see?
Fragile, Crazy, Shy, Serious and Honest can be a great combination of characteristics for a MASTERPIECE!
Smelling and hugging before the kiss it is very important.
I was 30% of your smell and your hug powered me with another 25%
A real switch to reality, clear and honest
Dance like it is your last chance to do it.
You can come with me and follow me on the street doing the same things.
Scream in the sky!!
After the ritual I can go extremely wild.
How the fuck are you and why I am so in love with you?
What do you think, It can be better than that? Did you notice the wild part of Giselda?
I really can’t see the border between imagination and reality but I am aware of that.
My diary and my writings are very important.”

(excerpts from Cristian’s diary)