July 10
Today I’m Natalia and I have two tasks. Climb the stairs in the living room in different ways and sing the Polish anthems. And make a travelling map.
First, I’m kissing on a body scar. Than I’m entering in Natalia’s room and I found the book of Nietzche from the Chomsky’s bar. I start reading it…
“Saying yes to life even on its strangest and most painful episodes, the will of life rejoining in its own in exhausting vitality even as it witness the destruction of its greatest heroes – that’s why I called Dionisyan, that’s what I guessed to be the bridge to the psychology of the tragic poet” (Nietzche – The twilight of Idols)
Shortly we start to work. I decide to play the crazy Natalia, compusilve with lots of sexual desire. I remember her saying “I Can Manage Everything”. I can be Natalia. Funny enough the Natalia Cosmin is leading the rehearsal today.
I START MY NEW IDENTITY WITH A KISS ON THE SCAR.
I TAPE MY BODY AND PERFORM WITH THE SWIMING HAT.
I WANT TO BE PART OF CRISTIAN’S MASTERPIECE
I WANT TO KISS IN THE MASTERPIECE
I WAS 40 % Cosmin while I was performing and 60 % Natalia.
After the rehearsals I dress-up as Natalia for the dinner.
And after the dinner, shortly I come back alone, I fall asleep in her sofa (without even not opening it) while thinking to the day…I supposed it’s hard to be Natalia.
I wake-up in the morning and I found my shoes at the entrance of the room. I don’t understand whom I am Natalia or Cosmin ? I realised that today we need to run together today before changing back to our identity. And than shout out being naked for minute our passed identity. I start hearing in the others room Cristian and Giselda screaming. I start screaming NATALIAAAAAAAAAAA…I’m also documenting the scream. End of identity.
